yes i am supposed to be packing which explains why i'm here procrastinating.
french toast with bacon, side of mushrooms, french orange juice,
poached eggs, salmon, sausages, sourdough bread.
i am going to miss this life.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Mart 130
yes i am supposed to be packing which explains why i'm here procrastinating.
french toast with bacon, side of mushrooms, french orange juice,
poached eggs, salmon, sausages, sourdough bread.
i am going to miss this life.
Monday, July 13, 2009
lets fly away
5 things to do after you're done with exams:
(yes i know this is really really long overdue cause i've been done with exams for 2 weeks but....life got in the way wtf)
1. dye your hair a colour your friends can only describe as 'chao ah lian'
okay but its really not as jeng now cause after 2 weeks of washing, it's faded to a colour thats acceptable outside of sungai wang wtf
2. spend time with visiting family. and by family i mean Tristan.
family which also left two weeks ago. goddammit. this is damn outdated shit.
3. go shopping until bank account starts screaming in pain!
after being shopping deprived for 3 weeks...well the result was kind of inevitable.
4. buy useless gadgets that i don't actually need
...and now i'm stuck with two ipods! but what the hell lah, the touch doesn't work with my dock and i can always keep the old one in the car
5. two words: EATING SPREE.
but amazingly manage to lose weight after stuffing face with about a million types of desserts.
okay actually i have a 6th thing to add....
6. GRADUATE!!!!!!!!!!
yup. results came out on Friday, my results were actually fairly decent and i am now...very unemployed.
the point is that i'm done studying! foreeeeeeeeeeeever!
but i still haven't decided whether to be petrified or excited about it.
x
other than that it's pretty much been hanging out with the girls, eating, shopping, being extremely sloth-like and unproductive. i actually don't think i can put off the job search for much longer but it really is a very shitty time to graduate so i am really quite worried about how long its going to take to find a proper job :/
okay lah i'm off to do laundry + start packing cause i'm headed home on Wednesday!
(yes i know this is really really long overdue cause i've been done with exams for 2 weeks but....life got in the way wtf)
1. dye your hair a colour your friends can only describe as 'chao ah lian'
okay but its really not as jeng now cause after 2 weeks of washing, it's faded to a colour thats acceptable outside of sungai wang wtf
2. spend time with visiting family. and by family i mean Tristan.
family which also left two weeks ago. goddammit. this is damn outdated shit.
3. go shopping until bank account starts screaming in pain!
after being shopping deprived for 3 weeks...well the result was kind of inevitable.
4. buy useless gadgets that i don't actually need
...and now i'm stuck with two ipods! but what the hell lah, the touch doesn't work with my dock and i can always keep the old one in the car
5. two words: EATING SPREE.
but amazingly manage to lose weight after stuffing face with about a million types of desserts.
okay actually i have a 6th thing to add....
6. GRADUATE!!!!!!!!!!
yup. results came out on Friday, my results were actually fairly decent and i am now...very unemployed.
the point is that i'm done studying! foreeeeeeeeeeeever!
but i still haven't decided whether to be petrified or excited about it.
x
other than that it's pretty much been hanging out with the girls, eating, shopping, being extremely sloth-like and unproductive. i actually don't think i can put off the job search for much longer but it really is a very shitty time to graduate so i am really quite worried about how long its going to take to find a proper job :/
okay lah i'm off to do laundry + start packing cause i'm headed home on Wednesday!
Saturday, July 11, 2009
spring clean
for the longest time now i've forgotten what it was like to have a stranger make you laugh and smile so much that your cheeks hurt. it was nice, having a decent conversation with someone that i didnt know. it was a nice break from the shit that i have to deal with on a daily basis, a reminder that there are bigger/better things out there.
maybe i am making things difficult for myself, maybe i need to stop coming up with excuse after excuse because it makes me less of a person and it makes me compromise the things that i hold dear.
for all your efforts, i'm sorry you weren't able to make me feel like you thought that you would. and the fact that you would try that in the first place is beyond me.
i think very soon, i will be cleaning out my closet. metaphorically of course. there is just some garbage (although my actual closet does look like its in dire need of a cleaning as well) that needs taking out, and some people that should be written off as losses.
i love the feeling of new beginnings :)
x
oh right. in case nobodys noticed, comments for anonymous have been disabled because yawn. spiteful comments. how original. its just part of the garbage that needs taking out.
maybe i am making things difficult for myself, maybe i need to stop coming up with excuse after excuse because it makes me less of a person and it makes me compromise the things that i hold dear.
for all your efforts, i'm sorry you weren't able to make me feel like you thought that you would. and the fact that you would try that in the first place is beyond me.
i think very soon, i will be cleaning out my closet. metaphorically of course. there is just some garbage (although my actual closet does look like its in dire need of a cleaning as well) that needs taking out, and some people that should be written off as losses.
i love the feeling of new beginnings :)
x
oh right. in case nobodys noticed, comments for anonymous have been disabled because yawn. spiteful comments. how original. its just part of the garbage that needs taking out.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
emo vs bimbo
Outfit of the Day:
Top: French Connection
Cardi: Country Road
Jeans: Bettina Liano
Beret: Forever New
Bangle: Showpink
yep so i've given in to doing an outfit post to balance out the apparent angst (yah thanks eeflin and aud) that everyone's been complaining about.
proper post coming up soonnnn promise. being unemployed is more work than i thought it would be :P
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
verbiage
words come easy, its the things that come after that count.
i am really angry right now. and there are two things i could do, 1) forgive or 2) unleash hell. while i'm quite certain the morally correct option is #1, i am quite tempted (and very close) to doing #2.
you don't betray someone that knows your deepest darkest secrets. that's just stupid. really.
my last paper is tomorrow and i am so over studying. my motivation to work peaked too early and now i'm pushing myself like really really pushing myself to just get the last one over and done with.
babies are a lot of trouble. LOT. they're only cute to people who have all day everyday to spend time doting over them. otherwise, they just get in the way of a life.
i am in a hole. and i can't see how i'm going to climb out of this hole without falling into another one.
i discovered this week that i have a 'talent'. i don't really think i like my 'talent' all that much because so far its just led to a whole mess of misunderstandings but i guess i could see how it can come in useful.
contemplating doing something life altering? don't think. just do it (omg like so cliche).
the number of ways you can be woken up by above mentioned baby before 9am in the morning: three. one of which included his knee in my windpipe. thanks mother.
people are the most complex things on earth. it will take me more than a lifetime to decipher why people do what they do.
mind games should be an Olympic sport. it is really more tiring and draining than anything else in the world.
are level five thinkers still level five thinkers if people know they're level five thinkers?
change is life's only constant. that and death i suppose.
i am really angry right now. and there are two things i could do, 1) forgive or 2) unleash hell. while i'm quite certain the morally correct option is #1, i am quite tempted (and very close) to doing #2.
you don't betray someone that knows your deepest darkest secrets. that's just stupid. really.
my last paper is tomorrow and i am so over studying. my motivation to work peaked too early and now i'm pushing myself like really really pushing myself to just get the last one over and done with.
babies are a lot of trouble. LOT. they're only cute to people who have all day everyday to spend time doting over them. otherwise, they just get in the way of a life.
i am in a hole. and i can't see how i'm going to climb out of this hole without falling into another one.
i discovered this week that i have a 'talent'. i don't really think i like my 'talent' all that much because so far its just led to a whole mess of misunderstandings but i guess i could see how it can come in useful.
contemplating doing something life altering? don't think. just do it (omg like so cliche).
the number of ways you can be woken up by above mentioned baby before 9am in the morning: three. one of which included his knee in my windpipe. thanks mother.
people are the most complex things on earth. it will take me more than a lifetime to decipher why people do what they do.
mind games should be an Olympic sport. it is really more tiring and draining than anything else in the world.
are level five thinkers still level five thinkers if people know they're level five thinkers?
change is life's only constant. that and death i suppose.
being back at square one is very very frustrating. i should have been smarter really. in the word's of Duncan Sheik, 'i believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn, well it must have been that yesterday was the day that i was born.'
starting tomorrow, i will be officially be an unemployed person. eep.
best friend is back. nobody has any idea how happy i am that my source of zen is here. somehow i handle situations better when she's around.
she is also proud of how i've grown apparently. but i am still thinking about #2 (re: above).
does childishness really beget childishness? and if that does happen then does being the mature person about this counteract this? (obviously still in reference to #2)
life is full of ironies. seriously. as Jay would put it, 'carrot cake or mud cake?' well now, since the carrot cakes decided to step up and the mud cakes decided to go rotten, you would've thought the choice was obvious. but nope. not for me. because life is full of ironies. and i don't actually get why there always has to be sacrifices. always.
life's ironies = a very resigned me.
here's a question. say you have a decision to make. in 10 years time, would u regret the things that you didn't do, or the ones that you chose to do with bad outcomes more?
and finally, back to the words of Duncan Sheik: 'nothing left to reason, only you to blame.'
best friend is back. nobody has any idea how happy i am that my source of zen is here. somehow i handle situations better when she's around.
she is also proud of how i've grown apparently. but i am still thinking about #2 (re: above).
does childishness really beget childishness? and if that does happen then does being the mature person about this counteract this? (obviously still in reference to #2)
life is full of ironies. seriously. as Jay would put it, 'carrot cake or mud cake?' well now, since the carrot cakes decided to step up and the mud cakes decided to go rotten, you would've thought the choice was obvious. but nope. not for me. because life is full of ironies. and i don't actually get why there always has to be sacrifices. always.
life's ironies = a very resigned me.
here's a question. say you have a decision to make. in 10 years time, would u regret the things that you didn't do, or the ones that you chose to do with bad outcomes more?
and finally, back to the words of Duncan Sheik: 'nothing left to reason, only you to blame.'
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
tonights the night the world begins again.
and from now on, things are and will be how they always should have been. :)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
just breathe
T____________T i'm so exhausted and stressed its not even funny.
i spent 7 hours in the library and only managed to cover 3 lectures. THREE. when i usually cover half a subject in a day. (and i still don't fully understand futures and options and capital structures FML)
but i learned my lesson from last semester. no more last minute finance studying! so i will persevere and get through all this shit even if it kills me.
hahaha damn busy until like wanna die but still got time to get cupcakes before starting the library campout.
yes i know we bought damn a lot. its called stress binging okay. (but even right now i'm wondering exactly how fat i'm gonna get if i finish both boxes wtf)
x
sadness has me at the end of the line. common sense knows that you're not good enough for me. forgiveness says that i should give you one more try.
i spent 7 hours in the library and only managed to cover 3 lectures. THREE. when i usually cover half a subject in a day. (and i still don't fully understand futures and options and capital structures FML)
but i learned my lesson from last semester. no more last minute finance studying! so i will persevere and get through all this shit even if it kills me.
hahaha damn busy until like wanna die but still got time to get cupcakes before starting the library campout.
yes i know we bought damn a lot. its called stress binging okay. (but even right now i'm wondering exactly how fat i'm gonna get if i finish both boxes wtf)
x
sadness has me at the end of the line. common sense knows that you're not good enough for me. forgiveness says that i should give you one more try.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
happy as a clam!
despite the fact that its the time of the month (therefore the red scarf wtf) and i have to spend the rest of the day cooped up in the library, today feels like its going to be an awesome day.
i think i've found my zen! hurraahhhh!
ooh and i also found a super cute beret over the weekend *smug
+ Duffy - Mercy
i dont know what this is, but you got me good, just like you knewww you woulddd
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